When I am 10 year old I have bad company they practice me in sexual activities.They practice to me imagine sexual things girl female chest lip vagina etc. When I go to their room they took book from one hand and other hand used to catch their penis under pants. They active in sexual activities from childhood Their age is 13 , 14 years they are 3 to 4 year elder then me. One day when I playing with them hide and seek They took me top of home roof in secret place there is dark, little light with out my permission they open my pants and make up and down push and pull my pee's organ this make me pain in organ but I can't say no left me this is my mistake they tried after that I close my pants I just still no-words I am be like mute I cant' scold them today I am regrets why i didnot left their company? why I cant' say they doing wrong with me? That is my very big mistake in my life. To can't say No go away, and running to home. left them. after that they feel tired to pull and pushing my secret organ, they start to open their pants and make move their organ. some minute of pulling and pushing they erect water like matter form organs I feel very shy and fear. seeing their activities. we came down to ground floor after their few minute activities.
when we meet together they used talk about sex organs sexuality thing they imagine their female friends organ and feel like satisfy. They does not much active in game. They make them self sexual emotion daily they talk about sex girl organs searching bush like secret place to pulling their organ I involve with them like mute man. I also practice their step when I we met together after some time of practice I start to used copy them when I lonely in home.
I did lots of that activities in my teenage life when lonely, after some year later I understand this is very bad thing It can damage our social life, body, mind and spirituality life. but I can't left that activities it make me forced to do involve in. I search sexuality matter in book video. after few year my organ erect white and oily diluted water. after erecting that water I feel tired. after some year later organ erected diluted water in night when I sleep it make me fear and shy it wet my under wear cloths. when I work, study, It forced to remember and imagine that activities and I want to erect that water I search secret place and start moving after few minute of exercise it came out. I have desire to more than one time in a day. It make me distribute in constraint in work study.
Before today 4 to 5 years I used to think give up that types of activities but I can't it adversely forced me to involve. I was erected when I sleep in night it make me problem when I used to guest in outside the my home. it make heart my emotion I can't control my things on this type of activities.
Now today in this age after practicing spirituality life, give up to watch movie and other unnecessary video, slowly becoming in normal like before 10 year old. It is very hard to be normal. even today when listing, watching and imagine sexuality make me hard to control my emotion to erect water.
I waste very vital things of my life in teenage due to company of bad friends. It is better to live lonely.
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